Thursday, September 27, 2012

Stranger than Fiction



The room is dimly lit with florescent light. Things are scattered apart, an aged bed with a fluffy mattress but without a bed cover, a dressing table crowded with books, empty bottles of cheap whisky, a coffee mug filled with cigarette buds.  The view of the room is clouded by smoke coming from a cigarette, which has not been dabbed for the last three minutes.  A man is gazing pointlessly at his laptop screen, trying to rise above the level of mediocrity by burning the night lamp for a crucial upcoming project. His, being oblivious to both the world outside and Beethoven, which is playing softly in the background suggests a life of struggle, maybe not for survival, but definitely for creative recognition.
 Entangled in a web, Spidey attempts to dislodge himself from a self created mess. A mess which reminds him of his position, pendulating between a glorious past and a possibly desolate future, blobbed in a puddle of salivary strands surrounded by undigested limbs and other body parts of a delicious memory. With a celebrated lineage of fearful hunters to back him up, spidey has inherited a natural confidence which gives him an intuitive understanding about survival.  His instinct, at the moment, is conking and vibrating, sending signals of evacuation to his tiny brain. A factory has been established recently in the vicinity of his habitat, which has a detachable chimney, emitting toxic fumes in short intervals, particularly driving away all possible forms of life from the surrounding. Spidey, being a survivor, takes it up as a challenge to brave out the adversity of his time. He is all alone; some of his tribe members have perished; guarding the familial lair and others have abandoned the tribal heritage by escaping to greener pastures. But he would not give it up so easily. He is the last survivor, this is the place where he belongs; this is the places where his progenitors prospered, the lair has given him his sense of identity. How could he abandon it?
  Words escape the mind of the man. He struggles, he smokes and he drinks. He wants to hallucinate as that might give him some ideas but something stops him. He smokes some more, drinks some more and struggles some more. Something is keeping him from flying. He feels encumbered by an unexplainable burden. What is the reason for his condition?  He stares blankly at his at his laptop screen. Tomorrow is the D-day; he has to get his project designed for an anti smoking campaign ready somehow by tomorrow morning.  The voice of his boss, which keeps on ringing in his ear, makes him uncomfortable and sweaty. He lights a cigarette.  Just then, from the corner of his eyes, he notices a movement. Gently turning his head, he tries to focus his gaze on the source which has distracted his attention. A tiny black spider in the crevices of the wall attempts to pitch itself in a translucent web.  It seems to be struggling to for some reason. He senses an agitation as he watches the spider hopping and balancing back and forth within the orifices of its netting.
 What are you looking at?’ he suddenly hears a voice. Did the spider just speak to him?  Are you laughing at my condition? Now this is serious. The man grabs the opened and half emptied bottle of whiskey and smells it. He is definitely hallucinating now. He checks for an expiry date and then he remembers that liquors do not have expiry dates. To get a closer look, he inches forward towards the web. Now don’t you come any further, You have already done enough damage.  In a state of shock the man looks at the spider. The sensation of being watched by a dozen pair of eyes makes him feel confused about his emotions. Can you hear me?  
Yes I can, you dumbass. You can do whatever you like to scare me off. But let me tell you, I am not moving. Even if I die here, I won’t budge from my place. Get that clear in your nut.    
What? But I didn’t even know that you existed.
The man takes a closer look at the spider.  What do you want spider man?
Ohhh! Do you really want to know?  Well then let me tell you, that whatever you smoke all the time might be a recreation to you. But it has taken a lot of lives. The smoke has wiped my entire clan. I am the last survivor. And I promise you that I will take my revenge.  If I was of your size I would have eaten you long time back. That would have done the world some good at least. But you know what? But I am  still going to fight you. Do you want to see how? I can get inside your head. You don’t believe me?  BOOOOOO.
The man wakes up with a start. He had slipped off to sleep. He can smell the burning of the cigarette bud.  The smoke has clouded the room. He looks up at the ceiling. He sees an abandoned spider web. He looks for the spider everywhere, but no signs.  Some time passes .He gets back to his work. Now he has an idea. What a stupid dream, but it surely was a useful one, he utters cackling to himself.  He remembers the he needs to wash his face before he settles down with his work. He goes to the washroom; look at his own face admiring his unkempt shabbiness. As he turns the knob of the tap, he is over come by a strange feeling. Something rings inside his head.
I hope you haven’t forgotten me, I have kept my promise.

Two Sides Revisited (2010)



Like a swarm of savage bees
Befallen and taken by surprise
The faces mauled, the putrid smell
 Of flesh which skin cannot conceal
The blood oozes with cringing walls, and creeks
With hairy mass, in fringe spaces of sublime
Stabbed in wounds, she clings on with fingers clenched
Around her knees, as fluids pass and gashes cold
Suspended, a taste of infinity

She killed a bird, and cried
Through violence did she reassert?
And anger cannoned through her veins
She wanted blood in return,
Her gentle soul, seamless  
The whiteness of her skin, the stillness of her jaded glance,
She prays to god for her virgin heart,
She loves to walk on crowded roads,
To watch the baby in the pram,
To hop across the pavements marked 
With games of squares and knots
She loved the beggar boy,
Who waits across the candy shop? 

With frenzy, she rocks the marble floor
When markets smell of rotten fish,
And meat shops slaughter by the road 

She squats heavily with heaving breath,
 Her body stilled....she struggles hard, to make or break her boundaries....
She knows the feeling of discharge; she hates it when she feels displaced,
Bottled in a mire of images,
Of gatherings in a parking lot, of needle pricks, and oxygen valves
Of incisions made deeper than medical insertions, in private alleys or public gigs.

Her peace is raided when she sleeps
Her body heated when she dreams,
Her anguish, un-sustained,
She feels a need to kill

She waits, in agony, she struggles in pain
She hates her guts, she feels so frail
Her ambush is inflamed, her lack of power to withdraw
Her incapacity to resist or warning them from being led
 Through the dark recesses of sublime, to the chambers of the repressed
Through intercourse of actions and reactions,
Through penetration of forces and strain 
Through spasms and orgasms,
Through existence and annihilation
She forces through her heaving sighs      
 A sharpness so ejaculated,
And blood, gushing in her mouth
through pulses motored by the veins,

Her whiteness robed in a scarlet gown.
And her vision blurred with bleeding fumes,
She pushes her fingers within her emasculated depths
She closes her eyes, seamless in her passivity
She has her closure for the time